Wonder Boy's Journal

9:52pm: my frog polly jean died!

4:42pm: well a lot has happened over the last couple weeks, we're moving out of my house that we have lived in for 17 years and we will be moving into an apartment, my sister has moved out and is living with her boyfriend now. as of oct. 1st we will be in our apartment. it is right on the falls it has a doorman and what not... so yeah. i guess. im heart broken to leave.

also this friday i will have to put my dog down she is 17 and is now deaf and blind and cant control her bladder anymore. i havent stop crying since we have made it official shes part of the family we have grown up together and i will miss her indefinitely

10:06pm: i think i have found out what i want to do in life "when i grow up" i dont know how steady or reliable the job maybe but i think it would be something i could be good at. either publishing or editing books. sounds like me like something i could do...read for a living i am sure there is more to it than that but i think it may be something i am interesting. now that i have choosen a career i have to start working toward it and what if that work of years in college brings me to nowhere? well i guess that is a gamble i will have to take. i have just lived a life of struggle working paycheck to paycheck and i dont want that anymore. which i know money cant make you happy but it sure makes life easier right? so hopefully this works out. i guess if it gets me no where i am at a point in my life where i am at the bottom anyways and i could always change my major i guess

11:08am: im going to have to put my dog down shes about 17 years old now and she hasnt been getting up and shes been going to the bathroom in the house and today i called and talked with the vet and when i hung up she jumped up started barking and running around the house now i have no clue what to do. i dont want her to get so bad that she is in constant pain and cant lift her head to eat but i dont want to put her down too soon. right now she has at least 12 binie tumors on her body shes deaf half blind and missing teeth but still spunky at times im just lost on what to do and my family has left it up to me since she is my dog.

9:50am: fuckin niagara falls pot holes!
holy fuckin shit balls! i hit a pot hole the size of me on sat. i fucked up my tire and my rim..and today i just called to have everything ordered (cause i have a foriegn car) they said it is going to take 3-5 days to ship it (fuck me what am i gonna do with out a car?!?!?!?) and 280 with out labor and im oh so poor all i want to do is cry

( Mailk )

2:42pm: i went to pennsylvania this weekend had some good times good times then when i got home josh called me and told me wilson cruz (aka ricky vazquez from my so called life) was talking at his school so a few hours after i got home i headed out to fredonia to go see him. he was so funny and so great im so glad i went! and i finally got my question anwsered (since mr. leto doesnt like people asking him about his acting career) i asked what the end of mscl was about and he said there was never one written they knew there wasnt going to be another season and that they knew that and wrote the ending the way it was on purpose! which doesnt anwser my questio but atleast i know now and dont have to keep searching for the anwser. i took a small video on my camera while i was there its not that great but its something.


( Ricky )

4:43pm: i just signed up for next semester classes i take the most random things.. this semsterim takin psy, stats, drawing I and creative writing next semester im taking womans history, womans literature, sign language and cont. math (which is the easiest math ever i went from calc and stats to middle school math!)

but the semester after next i graduate from nccc woop woop big accomplishment there right?!?!?

9:05am: i told you from the start just how this would end when i get what i want...
aw im payin out the ass right now im bleeding ive just been raped ahhhh.... i got in a "accident" there was me the snow and the crub nice hugh? last week or so i went to turn missed and hit the curb..i know have to pay 300$ for a new rim a front end allignment and have the tire move and blah blah blah now when i go over 50 my car shakes sucks huh?

but on the brighter side i was driven home and saw lynn were gonna hang out then shes gonna leave FOREVER and go to california where all the cool kids go and also marissa and i are going to get our tragus pierced (aka crunchy thing)

i havent really updated in awhile... IM SINGLE yay thats something new. and i'm taking an art class and failing miserably at it just not artistic i guess okay well i have to go i have a stats exam at 11

3:27pm: well it has been awhile since i last updated not too much going on i got a raise at work so thats cool, i went and bought my books today and it only cost me 200 dollars which isnt bad considering last semister it was twice that. but i guess it factual now that when me and my sister graduate next january we are gonna move i like my house and my room i dont want to leave it. i just dont want to think about it anymore... i tried to make cupcakes today and i dropped all the finfetti sprinkles on the ground...maggie liked them. and then the rest of the batter i just tried tojust make the cupcakes with and i think i overflowed the little cupcake holes. guess im not very domestic. i got payed today and had to spend half of it on new glasses cause i stepped on mine...sucks.

11:56am: yeah i know i havent updated in awhile ive been very busy

but today i just called petco to have maggie groomed and they said they wont do it because she is too old...sux

but on a better note tuesday im head out to mass. to go see BOB DYLAN whooo hooo how exciting yay

2:42pm: well i DID ended up going to connecticut and we actually went from there to NYC (which yeah i know i left ny to go back to leave and to come back again) but actually it was closer to there then it is to here believe it or not! but we went there to see the brooklyn bridge..which i actually walked over it was extremly awesome

but i feel like im finding myself again im starting to talk to people hang out with people. i talked to fisch for over an hour at work last wed. and were gonna hang out and this week rose and i are going to get my tatoo YAY

11:04am: the crickets are awfully loud lately!

9:15pm: im getting a raise go me! i think its only going to be like .25 so ill be making 7$ an hour but thats okay.

im leaving thursday to go to connecticut then on suday brad is taking me to new york to see the brooklyn bridge whoo hooo im excited

and i started my new shakespeare class and i love it so far! he told us on oct. 23 were taking a "field trip" to the biggest shakespeare festival in the world yay

9:20pm: i cannot wait for this week to be over...well tomorrow to be over i have worked soo much this week yesterday i worked 10-5 today 10-3 and tomorrow 11-6 i hate working sundays espically when tom is there altough hes been in a really good mood latly knock on wood

im babysitting right now i cant wait to go home and go to bed! its calling me but i cant even go to bed when i go home i have to pick my mom up from the casino at 1 so that should be just delightful

i bought my books for next semister today 300$ isnt that crazy!!! kill me now! alright im goin to watch the gilmore girls

7:32pm: wash your breast i dont want to be unclean please take those dirty pillows away from me.....
i bought a really cool moasic pj harvey poster its 35'x25'

i have to work tomorrow and i dont want to im so sick of working someone should support me i hate working. but now i have a title i am "KEY HOLDER" im like john cusack in say anything im key master except his was an entirly different job.

o no lulu is pregnat with dillons child! ow i burnt the roof of my mouth and it blistered it really hurts

11:54am: my boss called me last night and asked me if i could come in at 3 today 3-9 uh thats such a long shift hopefully i have a lot of work so the time goes by semi fast.

...josh i dont work sat. so if u still wanna hang out and what not call me!

im very tired today

12:37am: shes my shelter from the storm a place to rest my head i call her red
i was having an extremly bad day today and then brad called and my hair went curly...no but he ordered me the easter parade because i couldnt find it any where how absolutly awesome is that hehe how fun

2:51pm: yesterday josh and i went to warped tour it was sooooo hot out! but we pretty much just chilled out under the tent but we did watch thursday and 30 sec. and met jared letto yayayay he signed my underwear...no not the ones on my body the ones i just bought...dont be dirty!

ive been feeling guilty lately about somethings that happened about 3-3 1/2 years ago that i know that it is my job to apologize for i just dont know how to go about it...

10:53am: i cannot stop sneezing i just sneezed like 30x its crazyness....

well not too much going on ive been working a lot i dont like it yesterday i was acussed of stealing someones .26% that is 2.60 for every 100 dollars spent people suck i hate working i cant wait for retirement!

ive been looking everywhere for the easter parade with judy garland the only place i found it was at the library but i want my own copy of it o well

8:45pm: mmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmm mmmmmm mmm mmm mm
well even after my horrible trip to conneticut i am going back yes i know ur thinking god why? but this time i will be taking my car with the good transmission and it will be all good

today i finaly finished my fasfa which seemed to be a huge accomplishment because it has taken me so long to do. hopefully its all bacon!

8:26am: ive got to sneak down the alley way....
well in a little bit im leaving im mostly packed...im such a slacker. but im extremly excited im going to salem and im brining my copy of the crucible! im a dork

yesterday i went to go see x-men 3 for the 4th time how terrible is that? but it was at the cheap show and i got in free one of the times so its not really an obsession but i have to leave now my persrciption has to be filled before i leave byeeeeeee

4:25pm: i met jared leto! it was amazing hes soooooo hot i know jordon catalono how cool is that i hugged him and touched his hair....it was just sooo awesome! see my icon i touched that head those arms were around me hehehehe!!!!

i have to leave for work in a bit but i am still so excited i know ur jealous hehe

9:52am: well latly ive been really sick i got put on this medication and its really not working out as well as it should be i couldnt get up for two day except when i had to vomit my mother said i have "dead eyes" and that i lost my personality so maybe i wont be taking this anymore

but i finally went over my sisters house and her husband x-wife got pregant by my sisters brother and now theres a whole mess going on over there so im forcing her to leave the house and hopefully will cheer her up a little bit.

i have a lot of things im planning on doing soon monday josh and i are going to edgefest hopefully i can get us there in one piece! then on the 5th im leaving for hartford hopefully we can go to yale (i know ur all like great road trip) but im nervous because im going to be driving halfway the whole trip is 7 hrs so thats like 3 hrs of me driving AH but i am bring my xbox because i can play it in the car how cool is that

6:33pm: i went to the doctors yesterday because i kept gettin dizzy and feeling like im going to pass out and he put me on paxil because he said they were panic attacks today was my first day taking it and it made me sick..this sucks

11:58am: this sucks i had a terrible anixety attack last night then started throwing up and i feel extremly sick and i called into work but no one could cover for me and my manger is out of town i feel jus soo sick like the back of my throat burns like at any moment im just going to barf nice huh?